Aftermath

It's always cold in this lonely house
a house I cannot call 'home'.
Cold, always cold in every room
every dark and lonely room
Warmth would arrive with spring
in your arms, like fire
but now, spring shall not come
for I have thrown away the maps
locked the gates, secured the walls
and burned down all bridges

for I, my love, am no easy breeze
I am the lightning before your thunder
I am the castle you needed to conquer
the fortress you needed to vanquish
to get hold of the best you could ever want

But when I closed the gates before dawn
and stood behind them, waiting
for you to come and bring them down,
the lord of morning turned his back on me
walking down the path to the unknown,
leaving me in excruciating darkness...
and I, who had dreamt of being swept away
by the incomparable strength
of the thunder, the perfect storm...
I am still standing on frozen ground

And now, my love, now it's too late
to start over & again
Now all the storms will go unnoticed
and fade into silence



Simple Together

You've been my golden best friend
Now with post-demise at hand
Can't go to you for consolation
Cause we're off limits during this transition
This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
And I can't stop bumping into things

I thought we'd be simple together
I thought we'd be happy together
Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But I was sadly mistaken

You've been my soulmate and then some
I remembered you the moment I met you
With you I knew god's face was handsome
With you I suffered an expansion
This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And I can't stop dropping everything

I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But I was sadly mistaken

If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared
If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented
If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air
My wealth would render this no less severe

I thought we'd be genius together
I thought we'd be healing together
I thought we'd be growing together
Thought we'd be adventurous together
But I was sadly mistaken

Thought we'd be exploring together
Thought we'd be inspired together
I thought we'd be flying together
Thought we'd be on fire together
But I was sadly mistaken